Filled with hope, on Father’s day we took a huge step in our journey towards Incredible Baby #3. {for the back story, click HERE}. Before I go any further, I want to say that my love goes out to those reading this who find infertility a difficult topic….and I also want to say that in the past I’ve often felt really alone during this process because its just not a publicly talked about topic….so I’m doing my part to make it something that we can all talk about openly!
Obviously if this was happening the “natural” way, I wouldn’t be talking about it here on the blog
, but when pregnancy attempts happen in such a controlled, clinical way, it feels so different. Plus, you my dear friends have come this far with me so I want to share along the way!
It all started a few weeks ago when I met with the fertility clinic to say I’m ready. This is it, I’ve waited long enough. I’m at peace, no matter the outcome, I can do this. I can give my last embryo the best shot possible at becoming part of our family. The clinic ran the standard battery of tests and deemed me fit to get started, with the exception of my kidney problem. The doctor’s response was no,no,no, not until you get a high risk maternal fetal medicine doctor who can monitor you during pregnancy. A flurry of phone calls and stress, and I got an appointment with the high risk doc for mid-June. After realizing that if I didn’t do a June cycle, I wouldn’t be able to try until September (which would be undesirable because I’m incredibly busy in September), I begged the clinic to let me at least start a June cycle. They agreed, pending approval from the high risk doctor, and I began going in for 7:00 am monitoring appointments (*yawn*). I opted for a natural, no-drug cycle, which meant additional appointments so they didn’t miss anything since my natural cycle was leading the way and not the drugs. I met with the maternal fetal medicine doctor June 13 and loved her. She was fabulous and so encouraging and full of ideas for how to have a successful pregnancy with an enlarged kidney. She gave me the “go ahead” and faxed her report to the fertility clinic, who immediately called me to come in! After a few more 7:00 AM monitoring appointments last week, we got the call that Sunday, June 17th, was the day!!! This is happening!
Ready to do this…..
Survived the thaw and grew during the thawing time….viable!
Afterwards….joyful
Our wait is over, we will never be doing this again!
The drive home….can I stay laying down for two weeks until I know?
and now? now I am full of hope. Up until the moment that the doctor transferred the embryo, I was equally fine however this worked out. I truly have a very real sense that this is in God’s hands. But the more I’ve invested of myself in this, the more I want it to work. I am full of anxiousness and emotion and nervous butterflies in my stomach. I know I have been blessed with two precious miracles already, and ultimately I will be okay with it not working out and exploring adoption instead. Or being content with my two bundles of wonderfulness. But right now, I want to be in the 20% success rate. So now we wait.
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Fingers crossed! I’ll be waiting to hear your news!!!
Oh wow! I didn’t realize you’d already had the FET! Fingers and toes crossed, and a little prayer said for that beautiful little embaby to grow, grow, grow!
I’m proud of you for being so open about a difficult topic. God Bless in the coming weeks, whatever the outcome! Love you!
I’m reading with tears and hope and lots of prayers.
Emily, I’m praying the very best for you all! As you might imagine, this is a topic that’s been close to my heart for awhile now. So appreciate your prayers for our kids’ adoption efforts — and thanks for sharing something so private. Hugs!
The waiting must be so difficult, Emily, but you are in our prayers. God will continue to bless you and your family in His time and in His ways.